Hey there everybody! I hope you’re all well.
I’m going through some times where I am losing track of what my mission statement is. It is usually “kick ass or go home” or it goes something like that haha! I just think that my reality of things is changing and I’m losing my way of hardline thinking. Maybe it’s just me getting older and not giving a damn anymore about stuff. I thought I’d write some personal thoughts this evening. I am just about to crack open a beer and celebrate everything me hehe! Celebration is good and healthy for you, if you don’t have any sense of accomplishment or achievement in yourself then you’re missing out on the true values of what makes you, you, for me it’s what makes me, me and the enjoyment I get from the things I do. I like to focus on my strengths and enjoy the good times when they come around.
I have had some really hard past times, no doubt it has made me who I am today, but over-calculating things and stressing about stuff in a good way for me is becoming less apparent. Sometimes my brain fog, suspectedly from massive past drug use, has been very much an inhibitor for me in these recent times with me performing basic tasks. I wonder if there will be a time when I can be free of it. I don’t know but I’m trying to do the best I can. My projects and work ethic is the center of the core engine within me, where I keep smashing out productivity with production I feel closest to best practice I can get. You have to dream right?!
Thanks to my treating team for all your work with me over the last 4 years, it can’t be easy haha, and transforming my life into what I feel is my butterfly story for the modern era and for the ages with me. Just help her a little and she will do amazing things. It is really humbling to think just how far I have come in these recent times with the wonderful help from my workers and treating team and especially the “Big 3”, Dan, Phoenix and Roary!! Difficult times (brain fog) with me come and then they go. I just have to accept that and manage it the best I can in the end. In the end I just have to be kind to myself.
Last Friday for example I had the brain fog big time and in the end I was pacing around my apartment for like 20 minutes trying to prepare ready for bed. I was checking things and re-checking things and thinking about “is everything secure is everything ok”. It fries my noodle-brain, but then Saturday came around and after a good sleep it was when I smashed out that 10 hour day working on my 3D paramilitary character and getting it like at 95% completion, it blows my mind, and I still on reflection can’t understand how that was possible. I think some things will always be a mystery.
In summary, I just try to do the best I can in all aspects of everything that I do. I have attached a screengrab of my beloved website where you can check out all the latest and best and favourite stuff from everything me, Alisha. My website is my gold in this world and I love keeping it up to date, intuitive, and engaging.
Have a great week everybody and I’m sure I’ll catch you all again sometime soon, (see attached my website screengrab). My website can be found here: https://schizkitty.com.au
all the best, ta, Alisha.
